Don’t look forward

CandleI have an old friend, Nancy*, with whom I’ve kept in touch over the years, although not so much recently.

Nancy spent the last ten years of her working life in a job she disliked. She  had a calendar upon which she quite literally ticked off each day taking her closer to retirement at 60. Then she would have the freedom to do what she wanted and enjoy life with her husband, children, grandchildren and friends, spending the pension to which she’d contributed more over the years than she could easily afford.

She made elaborate plans for the travels she would take, the hobbies she would start, the causes she would get involved with. Notebooks full of plans. Not just wishes and dreams, concrete plans, with dates.

Just under a year ago, Nancy hit her sixtieth birthday, packed a few things from her desk into a cardboard box and left work for the last time with a spring in her step and a sigh of relief that now she could begin to enjoy the sweetness of her life and plans.

Today, Nancy is in the last days of her life, having been diagnosed with a particularly virulent cancer two months into retirement.

Why am I telling you this?

Because we all need a reminder from time to time to appreciate what we have while it’s here.

I like to make plans (I wrote recently about doing a year-end personal review), but it’s crazy to rely on them as more than a guide to what we want to do. Otherwise we let today slip through our fingers.

Live in the present, informed by the past and with a flexible eye to the future – what better resolution could there be for the coming new year?

The breezes at dawn have secrets to tell you, don’t go back to sleep

Rumi

See you soon

I won’t be back here at Pilgrim’s Moon until the beginning of 2013, so I wish you a very happy festive season, and thanks to all my readers for all the wonderful comments and support.

 *Name changed

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15 thoughts on “Don’t look forward”

  1. Life is what happens NOW. Not when you have passed your exams. Not when you have the perfect job. Not when the kids are finally at school. Not when you’re finally retired.

    NOW.

    It’s so important to remember that.

    My plan for this year was only that it should be better than the last one. I desired healing and happiness and peace of mind. And all in all, that’s what I got. I’m so grateful.

  2. So true! My mum, at 50, noted how many of her older colleagues either died or were widowed shortly after retiring. She and Dad started going on holidays abroad and doing things they really enjoyed, including joining a bowling club. Sadly, Mum died before she turned 63. Dad is now 90 and still enjoys the memories of those adventures – and regards the bowling club as having been a life saver for him.

  3. Your story, Tess, reminds me of myself at one time, when I got caught up in the money invested in a pension, how much profit or loss. I had no control over what happened to the money, it was deducted from my paycheck automatically. I just accepted the results as they were printed out on a report each month. Watching the ups and downs in the account was intriguing, like riding a canoe over the rapids or something. I can relate to your friend counting the days, not necessarily as futility, no matter the ending, because it can be a special joy just to imagine one’s future in retirement, a way to compensate or relieve the stress of a robotic work week.

  4. I’m so sorry to hear that, Tess. It’s hard to lose an old friend. I hope she found joy in making her plans and filling her notebooks over the years. Sometimes, that’s half the fun.

    Have a blessed and beautiful holiday!

  5. My mother was the opposite. She was convinced she would only have a few years, 4 at the most, before she ”popped her clogs” as she put it, once she retired.
    My Mother and father travelled extensively in retirement, Holland, Germany, Italy, Sorento, Capri, Spain, Portugal, Majorca and the United States.
    Spent all their retirement money on things mum wanted NOW
    Both her and my father are still around today at 83! , both a bit frail, a bit the worse for wear.
    The money has gone but they manage(just) and have good memories and still keep in touch with some of the people they met.
    My husband complains to me that they haven’t any money to make life a bit easier now.
    But I still think they wouldn’t change what they did and am glad for them.

  6. This story was very powerful to hear, thank you for sharing it.

    I’ve just started reading the book “The Power of Now” and learning to meet my goals by being as present as possible. I’m a huge planner with anxiety over missing opportunities or letting time pass by, and the anxiety ends up taking up more of my energy than the actual work I’m planning! Being in the moment and enjoying whatever I may be currently doing imbues life with such vibrancy.
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